It’s been a bizarre couple of days. I’ve had moments that were high highs and some unforseen lows. Nothing crazy or even life altering – but you know those little things that sort of all chip away at you? Yeah. Those kind of lows.
Yesterday my car got towed and I ponied up about $300 to get it back. Not awesome.
Today, I am pretty sure I lost my ID and I’m not sure where it might be. Also not awesome.
I’ve spent a lot of time letting stuff like this bug me and completely trainwreck my world. And not that it’s not bothering me. It is. And I’m sort of afraid that I’m on the border of too worn out to care anymore and trying to just let things roll of my back. It’s a fine (and very wordy) line.
Ephesians 2.7-10 says:
Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It’s God’s gift from start to finish! We don’t play the major role. If we did, we’d probably go around bragging that we’d done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.
For me, all this little stuff is just a reminder that I’m not really in control of anything and the mere fact that I have some semblance of order and worth in my life comes from God. I forget that a lot and I want to learn to remember it more.